Do you know that moment? The one where you’re sitting there all perfectly content and everything, and then someone says, “I could really go for a grilled cheese.”
And then you’re thinking about the grilled cheese. At first it’s just a benign thought. After all, you weren’t hungry – not even a little bit ’cause you just ate like an hour ago. So you say, “Sounds nice, enjoy!”
But then, you’re thinking about the grilled cheese…a lot. You’re thinking about the crispy, buttery bread. And the warm, salty hit of the cheese. And the guacamole you’re slathering on it. (Granted that last part might just be me.)
And then you start to feel hungry. You tell yourself it’s just your imagination. But your imagination feels an awful lot like actual hunger pains.
So you start to rationalize the grilled cheese because now you think you’re really hungry. And it would be downright inhumane to not feed yourself when you’re hungry – even if you’re on a diet from things like grilled cheese sandwiches.
At this point, the grilled cheese is all that you can think about: the sandwich itself, your desire, your hunger, the fact that you ‘shouldn’t’ have one…and the debate that has begun. That little voice, who can barely be heard over the sizzle in the pan, pipes up and squeaks, “You’re going to be unhappy after you eat it! You’ll regret it! Do not be led astray! Go do something else! Feed yourself some other way! I’m begging you!”
And you fire back, “Don’t be ridiculous! I’ll be fine. I’m a grownup for Pete’s sake. And I’m hungry! I need this grilled cheese!” The fact that the voice mentioned some things that are probably true, pissing you off and making you even more hungry and justified in your desperation for the grilled cheese.
Life as you knew it 3 minutes ago is now over. You can’t write, you can’t concentrate, you can’t have a conversation.
It might not be a grilled cheese, you know – that’s the easy way out and it has the lightest-weight repercussions. It might be a person or a place or heroin. Maybe you want to call someone you shouldn’t. Maybe you want to go somewhere you shouldn’t. Maybe you want just one more hit.
But let’s go back to that moment, at the beginning, when you didn’t even know you wanted it or him or her – and then, a millisecond later when you became obsessed. That leap? Bottle it. What a powerful tool for a writer to have.
As a ‘reader’ how do you not jump off the cliff? As a ‘writer’ how do you make sure we do?
Image credit: crispy fried (which is really very ironical, n’est pas?)
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Your conclusion took me entirely by surprise. And I love it.
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Grilled pimento cheese. Now, please.
AF – you, me and City Bakery. That’s all I’m sayin’…
Wasn’t too sure where you were going with this, other than the grilled cheese torture test but great segue…I love your writing.
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I too was surprised at your conclusion. I tend to get obsessed just like that but it lasts and lasts. I have been looking for the notes for one of my stories for a week now and I cant yet give up and decide it has been thrown away. I just have to figure out how make that same obsession with writing! Great ideas Julie
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You just described my daily existence!
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After reading, I totally had a grilled cheese sandwich. Swiss on Italian.
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Thankfully, I ate a bacon, egg and cheese sandwich moments before reading this post. Otherwise I’d cursing you for making me think about and crave grilled cheese.
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I do feel this way about writing. I will get the urge to write and can’t focus on anything else….and if I can stop life for a few hours I will write as many posts as possible to feed the temptation. I wish the temptation only came between clients and when my kids were at school!!