And there’s something that I’ve been thinking about, and I’m not digging it at all. Are you ready? I think I’m self-absorbed.
Now, I have friends that have nodded, ‘Yes, yes. You are.’ And I’ve had friends that have argued that you need to be self-absorbed in order to survive in this world – as a writer, as a woman, as a mother, as the person on the other end of the relationship. ‘It’s really not self-absorption, they say, it’s self-preservation, self-esteem, maintaining your sense of self.’
And I see both sides. So, my resolution, then, is to study this, to watch it – to explore both sides. When is it self-absorption and when is it self-preservation? When should it be changed, when should it be clung to and treasured?
I like my self-imposed task because there’s no New Year’s resolution set-up. I can’t really get it wrong or fall off the wagon – like you can with a diet. But, hopefully, I’ll learn something, become more self-aware and find my self in the world just a little more, well, diggable.
Though, and here’s the kicker, in order to carry out this task? I kind of have to be a little self-absorbed. Hmmm….
What about you? Something you’re itching to explore? Work on? Change?
p.s. Oh, also – I’m going to start each day at my computer writing the short – (as in 10-15 minutes max) – story of how I want my day, month, year, life to go. As in, if you write it, it will come.
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